To Anthony and Team Contentious Chic

A, you know you'll always be my favorite blogger. And, I know that you're being supportive because you care about what happens to me because you are a staunch supporter of Team Contentious Chic.

I really need everyone to not use my name, city or old blog name here though, k guys?

I know it's a pain. I know it seems stupid. But both DTD and mother are on the hunt. I suck at fake blogging. They know something is up and are nervous. Both are either calling or emailing me at every turn.

The only reason I deleted comments is because I do not want them indexed by search engines on terms that mother and DTD would look for to see if I have a new blog. You guys know that I never delete comments just 'cause I disagree with them or something. Hey, I'm the Contentious chic: I duke it out in the comments, baby.

I really need this space to take that last step and I really need Team Contentious Chic here with me.

CPG is incredible. I so wish you guys could talk to him because you would know that. But, as great as he is there are a lot of hurdles still to come and I may very well need a big tough ganster/porn star dude's shoulder to cry on; Brian and Amanda putting the kettle on, magiking up shortbread and turning every blasted thing into a euphemism; Debra passing me kleenex; Kenna audblogging pretty much anything (hey, the phone book works for me!); Ms. A.R., MDMH, Barbara and Shelly offerring sage and often the most hilarious advice; Angie, Jess and Becca telling me he's not worth it and suggesting ice cream/shopping solutions; Pup and Rob kicking some ass and saying they still want mine < g > etc. to get through it if it just blows up in my face.

Every single one of you has helped me more than you know to get to this point. You put up with the Flash goldfish jumping over the words and the horizontal scrolling layout and the black and grey Kerry lost mourning layout. You listened to rants about DTD without being judgemental about me being an idiot for ever even talking to him. Anthony even got people started donating to Boston Cure Project to make up for his candidate winning.

You guys gave me the opportunity to really explore everything in a totally safe environment. You guys knew that I was going somewhere with this before I ever did.

You gave me confidence when I really had none.

I think I really needed to do things the way that I did initially, passive agressive though it may have been. Now though, I don't see anything to be gained by continuing to allow mother or DTD access to my feelings. Basically they've just lost that right. I mean, I guess they had before I even started blogging only I just didn't see it.

I know this has gotten maudlin but I really need you guys now and I really think I need to do this this way and I just wanted to let you know how very, very much I appreciate you guys and that if I delete a comment it is not for any reason other than to protect myself.