Wednesday, August 10, 2005

To Anthony and Team Contentious Chic

A, you know you'll always be my favorite blogger. And, I know that you're being supportive because you care about what happens to me because you are a staunch supporter of Team Contentious Chic.

I really need everyone to not use my name, city or old blog name here though, k guys?

I know it's a pain. I know it seems stupid. But both DTD and mother are on the hunt. I suck at fake blogging. They know something is up and are nervous. Both are either calling or emailing me at every turn.

The only reason I deleted comments is because I do not want them indexed by search engines on terms that mother and DTD would look for to see if I have a new blog. You guys know that I never delete comments just 'cause I disagree with them or something. Hey, I'm the Contentious chic: I duke it out in the comments, baby.

I really need this space to take that last step and I really need Team Contentious Chic here with me.

CPG is incredible. I so wish you guys could talk to him because you would know that. But, as great as he is there are a lot of hurdles still to come and I may very well need a big tough ganster/porn star dude's shoulder to cry on; Brian and Amanda putting the kettle on, magiking up shortbread and turning every blasted thing into a euphemism; Debra passing me kleenex; Kenna audblogging pretty much anything (hey, the phone book works for me!); Ms. A.R., MDMH, Barbara and Shelly offerring sage and often the most hilarious advice; Angie, Jess and Becca telling me he's not worth it and suggesting ice cream/shopping solutions; Pup and Rob kicking some ass and saying they still want mine < g > etc. to get through it if it just blows up in my face.

Every single one of you has helped me more than you know to get to this point. You put up with the Flash goldfish jumping over the words and the horizontal scrolling layout and the black and grey Kerry lost mourning layout. You listened to rants about DTD without being judgemental about me being an idiot for ever even talking to him. Anthony even got people started donating to Boston Cure Project to make up for his candidate winning.

You guys gave me the opportunity to really explore everything in a totally safe environment. You guys knew that I was going somewhere with this before I ever did.

You gave me confidence when I really had none.

I think I really needed to do things the way that I did initially, passive agressive though it may have been. Now though, I don't see anything to be gained by continuing to allow mother or DTD access to my feelings. Basically they've just lost that right. I mean, I guess they had before I even started blogging only I just didn't see it.

I know this has gotten maudlin but I really need you guys now and I really think I need to do this this way and I just wanted to let you know how very, very much I appreciate you guys and that if I delete a comment it is not for any reason other than to protect myself.

14 Comments:

Blogger Debs - debslosingit.com said...

So... um... when does the orgy start? *G*

Seriously, obviously we all love and adore you or we wouldn't have followed yo across so many incarnations of That Other Site for so long- I mean heck, the horizontal scroller from hell were actually starting to grow on me when you changed it..lol.

Hang in there, and we'll all stick this out together. *S*

1:08 AM  
Blogger Brian McCloskey said...

Kettle's on, 'k?

10:38 AM  
Blogger Jessica said...

I completely understand! I hate searching for something and my own damn blog comes up as a friggen resource! What the hell!

I love google, but it's haunting!


PS - You're going to hate Chris & I. She's been snipped. She was out of control. We hated to do it, but it had to be done. Thank you for everything, and we really did have every intention in the world of NOT doing this to her. And just to make everything even more heartbreaking for the 3 of us, we had an appt from hell. We apologized to her the whole way home. :(

1:24 PM  
Blogger barrie said...

out of control HOW?!? She weighs two ounces!

Say what you want about me being mean in training my bird but Solo wouldn't let me *touch* her the first week. Now, she flies to me when I call her, she flies to a perch when I send her, I can put a harness on her and yesterday she let me flip her on her back in my palm to scratch her tummy.

Did the vet talk you into clipping her?!? I totally should have asked on the list for an avian vet who would respect your decision to let her remain flighted :(

You can refledge her when she moults out < g >

2:29 PM  
Blogger barrie said...

Thanks Brian, you'll like him, he doesn't eat tomatoes either and loves Harold and Maude :)

An orgy'll be a good distraction when CPG comes to his senses and decides I'm a pudgy lunatic Deb ;)

2:32 PM  
Blogger mdmhvonpa said...

Heh, we are supposed to be shoring up YOUR defenses and ego, not the other way around! ;) It's all going to work out ... honest.

3:46 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

So should we delete links to you on our blogrolls? And I was going to caution you about using "DTD" since that's easy to search for. But I tried it and a dozen other combination of searches for words or phrases you use frequently and wasn't able to get google to find your new URL. Your little cloak of invisibility seems to be working for now.

4:23 PM  
Blogger Jessica said...

First off - I don't think you're mean with Solo. She's a very happy girl who loves you very much!

The vet had nothing to do with it. Chris and I made the decision well before the appt and we asked the vet to do it while we were there.

And she's 3.5 ounces! :)

4:49 PM  
Blogger barrie said...

MDMH, promise?

Angie, I borrowed Harry's cloak :)

I just don't want the B word or TPB associated with this URL. Notice that I fucked up and used the bird's name though so I get that it's tough, lol. I caught Amanda using Rainman's real name once so even pros have lapses ;)

Becca, that is an incredible story!

Jess, what on earth was she doing that was such a problem though?!?

6:16 PM  
Blogger anthonygrieco said...

maybe you should just change the spellings...

8:27 PM  
Blogger barrie said...

LOL, A :)

Barbara, didn't you get the mass email to "the team"? It was a spur of the moment decision and YES you are a team member! Did you just follow me from a comment I left with this nick?

You are *nothing* like my mother. I would have been beyond lucky to have a mother even a tenth as supportive and caring as you are :)

Except Kenna, the gang all seems to be here now and hopefully when she gets back from her travels she will follow suit.

10:37 AM  
Blogger Kenna said...

Will update my links when I get home and have some time. Believe me, I know all about the other blog thing ... hang in there baby!

1:58 AM  
Blogger Kenna said...

P.S. I don't think I got the team email, but I'm here now.

1:59 AM  
Blogger barrie said...

K, I suck at sending out mass emails. Organization isn't exactly my strong suit but the gang's all here now, innit :)

9:48 AM  

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